One wonÂders what might have become of Richard Atkins’ musiÂcal career had he come of age in this milÂlenÂniÂum, when youngÂsters sufÂferÂing from acute stage fright regÂuÂlarÂly attract staÂdiÂum-sized folÂlowÂings on Youtube.
This was most defÂiÂniteÂly not the case in 1968, when Atkins, aged 19, took the stage in a small HolÂlyÂwood club filled with music indusÂtry brass, there specifÂiÂcalÂly to see him.
UnforÂtuÂnateÂly, talÂent could only take him so far. HavÂing learned to play guiÂtar only a couÂple of years earÂliÂer in the wake of a disÂfigÂurÂing motorÂcyÂcle acciÂdent, he and partÂner Richard ManÂning had recordÂed an album, Richard Twice, for MerÂcury Records. The presÂence on that record of sevÂerÂal memÂbers of the WreckÂing Crew, an inforÂmal, but legÂendary group of LA sesÂsion musiÂcians, conÂferred extra pop pediÂgree. The Acid Archives latÂer called it “a virÂtuÂalÂly perÂfect pop album, the kind of thing that would have ruled the charts if the wind had been blowÂing the right way that month.”
Alas, one tiny techÂniÂcal difÂfiÂculÂty at the start of the gig caused ManÂning to flee, leavÂing the freaked out and frightÂenÂingÂly ill equipped Atkins to deal with the yawnÂing chasm that had opened between him and the audiÂence. The only fix that occurred to him was a Bugs BunÂny-inspired soft shoe, a move that apparÂentÂly went over big with his Mom, priÂor to the acciÂdent, when he had two legs and could balÂance withÂout a crutch.
As recountÂed in Matthew Salton’s aniÂmatÂed docÂuÂmenÂtary, above, this soul crushÂing moment is not withÂout humor. Atkins, affaÂbly narÂratÂing his own stoÂry, has had 50 years to mull that night over, and realÂizes that blown opporÂtuÂniÂties are probÂaÂbly more uniÂverÂsal than sucÂcessÂfulÂly snagged brass rings (AmerÂiÂcan Idol, anyÂone?)
Over the ensuÂing years, Atkins found fulÂfillÂment as a woodÂworkÂer and famÂiÂly man, but music remained a painful what-if, addressed largeÂly through avoidÂance.
Salton’s exuÂberÂantÂly scratchy aniÂmaÂtion comes as Atkins is takÂing steps to conÂquer his stage fright, perÂformÂing out at small cafes, fesÂtiÂvals, and potluck supÂpers near his PacifÂic NorthÂwest home.
He’s been postÂing old songs, genÂtly remindÂing lisÂtenÂers, “before I’m judged too harshÂly, rememÂber that I was 18 and livÂing in North HolÂlyÂwood, probÂaÂbly ragÂing horÂmones and in the music busiÂness to boot!”
He’s also writÂing and sharÂing new songs, includÂing the touchÂing “Life Is A RollerÂcoastÂer,” above.
PerÂformÂing on FaceÂbook Live in conÂjuncÂtion with Salton’s New York Times Op-Doc essay, he tears up when the interÂviewÂer informs him that his daughÂter has just postÂed an encourÂagÂing comÂment, and eagerÂly conÂfirms his availÂabilÂiÂty when anothÂer comÂmenter asks if he’d be up for a gig.
It’s only too late when you’re in the grave.
TravÂel back in time with a couÂple more psych-folk cuts from Richard Twice, above, or buy the album in digÂiÂtal form on AmaÂzon.
RelatÂed ConÂtent:
Syd Barrett’s “EfferÂvescÂing EleÂphant” Comes to Life in a New Retro-Style AniÂmaÂtion
Ayun HalÂlÂiÂday is an author, illusÂtraÂtor, theÂater makÂer and Chief PriÂmaÂtolÂoÂgist of the East VilÂlage Inky zine. FolÂlow her @AyunHalliday.



